Dude, we're getting a Dell, and other stuff

I killed our Gateway computer. Not sure how I did it, but I did. On Thursday night I loaded MS Works so that we had a word processing program. The CD I used actually came with the computer. The old Gateway couldn't handle it and she rolled over and died. We can't even get the beyotch to turn on. So today I ordered a Dell laptop. I am SO excited. I have wanted a laptop for years. I can't wait to experience the freedom of computing from wherever I please! I may get my lawn chair out and go sit in the driveway and do some stuff on the new computer.

In other news, I haven't been taking my meds (lexapro). Not an intentional thing. I ran out. Forgot to call in refill and then forgot to pick up the refill. Let me tell you, by today I could totally feel the difference. I sort of noticed over the weekend. I went to Hillarities Comedy Club on Friday night and started crying at the opening video thingy they had about Moms. Luckily it was dark and no one saw. Think I was pretty much ok on Saturday, though I did nap most of the day. Sunday (y'day) I cried several times. Once was from the awesome gift my Niece Julia gave me. Then driving home after leaving my family while reflecting on what a perfectly lovely day it was.....even if I am not technically a Mom. Started crying. Then this morning driving to work they were doing this recap thing of Len Barker's perfect game 25 years ago and I STARTED CRYING! Hmmmm, think something is up? Oh, did I mention that the crying is mixed in with complete irritability? And no, I am not having PMS - that was last week. And though I'm sure he'll disagree, the hubby could have been a little more loving and stuff yesterday. I am always ultra sensitive on Mother's Day anyway, but this year was worse. AND I am the stepmom of his kids. He walks in, gives all the ladies a kiss and tells them Happy Mother's Day (yep, I'm literally the only woman there who is not a mother). He doesn't even kiss me!!! MY Mom had to say, Uh Dave she is a STEPMOM. Then I got a peck on the cheek, but no happy day wishes. Whatever.

So, I started wondering why the hell I was feeling this way. That is when I realized that I hadn't taken my meds in at least 5 days. Yep, made sure I picked that refill up today. So, for all of you out there wondering in the back of your heads if the meds really do help - they do. I don't like feeling the way I felt the last few days. Hopefully I'll be back to my medicated normal self in a few days!

Until then, stop looking at me like that you fucktard before you make me cry and then I'll have to kick your ass!